So I’m moving again next week. This will be the third move in the last two years. A couple years ago I moved to the States for a year to attend Bible school, then last summer I moved back home for 10 days, then packed up and drove with my Mum to the other side of the country. This time it’s less than an hour away, so it won’t be as drastic, but it’s still a change. I realized that I don’t deal with change very well. I’ve had more sleepless nights in the last few weeks than I’ve had in a while.
I think that sometimes I am so good at distracting myself that I don’t actually know what is going on in my spiritual life (see previous post). Yet surprisingly, change, and the anxiety that can accompany it, may actually be a good thing. Why? Because it reveals the reality of my heart. It reveals what I am placing my trust in. If I’m finding security in the comfort of familiarity and routine, then when that changes, anxiety will result. But if I am anchored in Jesus, then it should not matter what changes take place, because my place of refuge has not moved.
We sang this song in church the other day, and I’ve found myself singing it a lot lately.
Christ the sure and steady anchor
while the tempest rages on
when temptation claims the battle and it seems the night has won
deeper still then goes the anchor
though I justly stand accused
I will hold fast to the anchor
it shall never be removed
Do I actually believe those truths? Do I believe them enough to be completely steadfast amidst uncertainty? The other night I started reading the Psalms aloud and listening to worship music, and it was amazing how gradually the anxiety went away. Truth is powerful, friends. Let’s declare it to our souls. Our Father will keep us in perfect peace as we trust in Him (Isaiah 26:3). The key is to trust, and to cling to Jesus, our sure and steady anchor, as He holds fast to us.
Cast your burden on the LORD, and he will sustain you; he will never permit the righteous to be moved. Ps 55:22, ESV